Images Of Ellie

Whatever had I done! Oh, I really didn’t know
Images of Ellie lying in the snow
It wasn’t really thoughts that lead Ellie back to mind
Thoughts of that day were all but left behind
Coldness numbs my toes but I burn with guilty shame
Why did I leave Ellie, alone in the lane?
Did I turn my back and just walk out of sight
Or was it something more sinister, did Ellie and I fight?
Now there is no place, no sanctuary I can go
Always in my head Ellie lies in the snow.
I’ve put it many ways and turned it inside out
But Ellie’s death was my fault, of that I have no doubt.
For my memories are clearing and I shall watch again
A flash of sharpened silver above a seeping crimson stain
As was Ellie’s wish, I turned by back to go
The only image in my head, Ellie lying in the snow...
© Lauren Hay